Heart beats

Chapter 3

*Jamari*

Waking up early was something I was used to. I'd start working out as early as possible, it helps me to let off some steam.
     Anger is something I struggle with, everyone said I needed to get help. So I started going to therapy, but bow I'm back in NYC, I don't have one. And I don't need one. I have every right to be angry. No one apart from my nana showed me love. As a child I craved for my fathers love, I begged for it. But he'd throw his poisonous hate to me instead.
I'm never gonna beg for sick shit like that ever. I wasn't loved the way I wanted to be, but crazy people out here asking for it from me. I can't give what I don't have. I gave the best of love to Janice  genuinely, but she threw it back in my face like vomit. Never again would I be so stupid.
      Hearing my phone ring snapped me outta my thoughts. I got off the treadmill  and walked towards where I plugged it. Tanya was calling.
       "Yo"
       "Jahhh! I heard you're back on NYC! Yay! I'm so excited I can't wait to come and see you big brother"
I couldn't help but smile at her reaction. Tanya was my little sister. My father can't seem to keep his dick in his pants. Tanya's mother was from the UK. She was 22 going on 23, making her six years younger than I am. I only got to know about her five years ago, how disgusting my father is. But I love Tanya. Ever since she started college, we seldom saw, considering the fact that she was schooling over there, but we did communicate.
      "What's good baby girl? How you been? "
      "Been pretty good Jah. Although schools been kicking my ass, but nothing I can't handle. "
      "Of course girl. How's yo mama? "
      "She's good. Dad just keeps giving her tough times. He's so selfish."
      "Tell me about it. The nigga was born that way. His dick ain't selfish tho."
Tanya's loud laughter made me move the phone away from my ear a bit.
      "Jah you never change. Alright I wanna let you know I'd be coming over to visit in 2 weeks time! "
      "I see that's great baby girl. You staying at my place? "
She sighed at my question.
      "Dad said I must stay at his place."
This nigga is crazy. I know what he's tryna do. He knows I'm in the city, he just wants to use this as a means to get on my nerve.
     "But you know I'd always be at your place"
     "Its all good lil girl. I look forward to seeing you"
     "And I look forward to seeing the sexy boys on your team. Bye! "
Immediately, she hung up. Chuckling I dropped my  phone back on the bench.
I looked up at the clock at realized it was 7:48am. Now I know that damn cook better be here. I let my security know she's now a worker so that she wouldn't have no issues coming in.
      Heading for the kitchen, I see no sign of the Luna girl. Man I'm hungry. I grab a bottle of water from the fridge, alongside an apple and some berries. Sitting down on the island I began eating.
       "Good morning Jamari."
I turned around looking at pretty Miss Luna. Late for her first day, wow, really impressive.
       "I could fire you right now. You didn't check the time or something. Listen here short stuff I don't play about my breakfast. You-"
       "I missed the bus that would have brought me earlier. I'm really sorry, please it won't happen again. Please. "
I don't know why for some lame reason I wasn't angry anymore
       "Get to work Luna."
She came into the kitchen fully and dropped her bag on the island. Why does she have to look this pretty tho. My eyes watched her every move. Look at lil mama's waist. I just wanna hold it so bad. She turned around to look at me. Look at em lips. Who gave birth to this girl, damn.

       "Uhm would toasts, eggs and beacon be okay?".
When she noticed I was intensely starring at her, she turned away tryna hide her now rosy cheeks.
       "Do what you gotta do Luna. You're the chef."
She nodded and walked towards the fridge, but then she slipped and fell
       "Ouch! "
I couldn't help but laugh. Why did that look so hilarious.
      "Are you serious! There's water on the floor! Are you happy that I could've been hurt? Your an asshole for that"
      "Aye don't be using those words on me I'd fuck you up mama"
She got up and rolled her eyes at me. Typical girl stunt.
      "How old are you Luna?"
      "Uhm 23. Why? "
      "You better start acting like it."

*Luna*

What? Oh this nigga is crazy. So disrespectful. I watched him walk out of the kitchen and then rolled my eyes. He's pathetic. I don't care about his stupid attitude, so far he pays me to pay my bills and save for my dads surgery, that's all I'm interested in. He's not a baby, I can't be changing his dirty attitude diaper. I'd shove them down his throat.
      I started making his breakfast. Putting my magic hands to work. This nigga better appreciate me. I made his plate and then made mine. I dug in immediately, jeez I sure was hungry. When I was done, I helped myself to some orange juice from the fridge. This niggas fridge is overflowing.
       In the process of washing the utensils I used, I couldn't help but notice the strong scent that filled room. Turning around I saw Jamari already looking at me. Jesus save me, this man is doing things to my body sheesh, its definitely getting hot in here. He's so fine. He was wearing a black sweat shirt with matching sweat pants. His braids looked so good, look at his lips! Gosh his height and build was everything.
      "You gonna turn off the tap or what"
I quickly turned around to focus on doing the dishes. Wow Luna, you can't stop embarrassing yourself can you? I heard him chuckle as he pulled out a stool to sit on. I heard his fork hit his plate so I knew he had started eating.
       "What would you like for lunch?"
       "I dunno, just make sure it touches my soul"
This dude is crazy.
       "Okay"
       "Yeah. I'm gonna head out to my boys. Stay here, don't have none of your boyfriends over at my place. Don't snoop around, but make yourself comfortable. I'd be back by lunch time."
Really nigga boyfriend with an s. He's so rude.
        "Whatever." I murmured
        "Say what? "
I turned around and gave him a tight smile.
        "I said sure."
He looked at me, I knew he heard me the first time. He grabbed his keys and headed for the door as I followed behind.
I watched him open his garage and I almost passed out. How many cars does this nigga have?  He's so spoilt. He got into the white range rover and drove out.
This man couldn't even say bye.
      I definitely was gonna snoop. Come on, look at this house. I entered every door I saw. He had too much. A game room, really?
Finally I opened what I'm sure was his room. It looked so neat. The dark interior was just perfect for someone as rude as Jamari.

I entered his walk in closet, wow. He had a lot. He never had to worry about lacking clothes. I noticed how neat he was. I like that about him. He had some basketballs in the room, so I picked one up. I started bouncing it excitedly. Not until things went left and the ball hit the light bulb in the closet, causing it to fall and break. I screamed and moved to avoid getting injured.
      Immediately I put the ball back where I picked it up from, raced downstairs to grab a broom to clean up my mess to erase all evidence of me being there. With that being done, I went downstairs to the kitchen, where I should be minding my business and thinking of what I'd be making for lunch.
Something I should have done from the start.