Mattheo Riddle 𝖔𝖓𝖊 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖙𝖘 🩸🔪💚

i can't

TW

Suicide
Drugs
Body shaming

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It looks like a little face 🥲

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I fucking hate it here
this stupid school
And every one in it
Its a living hell whole
Every body only cares about them selves
And making the lower class feel like shit

Especially pansy

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She's been out to get me ever since day fucking one I never did anything to her or any of her stupid little friends

First year march 31:

"Hey l/n" she said with an evil grin

"Hi pansy" I said smiling while trying to eat my food I reached for my cup but to my surprise she took it

"Here let me help you" long story short I was embarrassed and soaked

That was our first encounter

Sixth year February 18:

I was minding my business walking to my last class when I was stopped by pansy and her little goons as much as I tried to defend my self I would always end up getting hurt

"What do you want Parkinson" I said looking her directly in her eyes

"Well i just wanted to know if you actually thought your boyfriend was gonna be able to stop me" she said smirking at me

"I'm not in the mood for you shit pansy now move" I said trying to push past them

"No I'm not just gonna let you leave after you made Mattheo threaten me" she punched me in my stomach I don't want to go into detail but you know what happened

I ended up avoiding Mattheo because I had bruises everywhere and I didn't want him to get involved with it, I was told he was looking for me tho but I didn't care

Fast forward to now

Sixth year march 6

So here I was on the tower I always hated this place and I hated it will be the last place I ever see

I wrote Mattheo a note because I haven't seen him I just wanted to let him know it wasn't his fault and that I truly did love him

Mattheo's pov:

I tried talking to her friends
Even her fucking dorm mate and no one knows where she is
I know she's been having a hard time but just fucking disappointed? Like wtf

I went back to my dorm thinking she would show up tomorrow like I have been for the past 3 days I went to my bed and saw a not

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Too: Mattheo

From: y/n

Hey Mattheo i know we haven't seen each other in a while and I just wanted to let you know that I love you so so much and you're the best thing that ever happened to me but by the time you see this it will be to late 

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Obviously I didn't read through because I knew what she was doing and I couldn't just fuck let that shit happen

I ran to the astronomy tower and I saw her about to jump and I grabbed her and pulled her back

"What the fuck is wrong with you y/n" I said looking at her  teary eyes With mine Before she could respond I turned her to face me

"What the fuck y/n ?"  I said shaking her slightly

"Let go of me Mattheo" she said pushing me

"No I'm not gonna let you fuck kill yourself" I said yelling at her

"Because Mattheo i hate it I fucking hate it here in this stupid school and all the stupid people in it" at this point she was sobbing and she dropped to the floor

"Ok but you can't just fucking ghost me for a week and leave me a note telling me you're about to kill yourself, how do you think that makes me feel?" I said rubbing and kissing her head 

"This isn't about you Mattheo ok? Its abo-" I cut her off

"Does Parkinson have somthing to do with this?"

"Yes but its every one Mattheo" at this point I was sobbing into his chest

"Just tell me who and I'll deal with it" I wasn't gonna tell him its only gonna make it worse

"No you're only gonna make it worse" I said moving away from him

"Well im not just gonna let you jump without an actual explanation" he said hold my arm

(Idk what I'm doing, and I don't know how I'm gonna end this no pun intended😬)

"Mattheo just go away" I said standing up he stood up too and gave me a hug

He looked down at me and smiled
"I love you y/n you're the most important person to me right now and I really do care about you so I'm not gonna just go away and leave you here, so we can stay here all night until you tell me what's wrong" he said kissing my head

"I just can't Mattheo I can't tell you because then you're gonna try to get involved and its only gonna make it worse"

loved Mattheo I really do but he just won't understand what I'm going through no one will and thats why I did it and I hope one day Mattheo will move on and forget about me and what happened that night

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last Sunday I ate almond butter and almost died because I'm allergic for some reason but yeah that's what happened to me
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And no I do not think suicide is a joke